Thursday, July 12, 2012


The truth is, I can handle it. The task before me is not greater than the strength within me.

For years, I have had an inner voice telling me:

"I'm not good enough. I will never be good enough. I can never reach my goals. I am a total loser. Everyone else has it together, but I always screw things up. Why do I always fail? I don't deserve this job."

I have had this voice in my head and heart for as long as I can remember. It has prevented me from so many things, damaged relationships, destroyed my education, and causes me great pain.

One of the reasons I love birthing so much is that it is one time when I overcome this enemy within me. When I am birthing, these words shine from my soul:

"I am good enough. I am reaching my goal. I am a champion. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.* I am doing great. I was made to do this."

The task of birthing my child is so great, I don't let the negative voice ever have the microphone. EVER. My child needs me, and I can do this.

I was recently reading over a letter written to me by one of the dearest friends I've ever had. She wrote in response to a conversation where I shared my discouragement with her. She told me she loved me and reminded me of Elijah's birth. Eli's birth was and is still the most spiritual birth I've ever experienced. You can read the whole story HERE. Here's an excerpt:

The contractions were so intense. I tried a little push with one contraction. No, it wasn't time yet, but I could tell that this was going to be harder than Ana's birth. I thought, "I CAN'T DO THIS". At this time, God impressed on my heart not to speak and claim those words of defeat, but instead to call out to Him. It was between contractions. Everyone was totally quiet. I was facing the wall and couldn't see anyone in front of me. It was just God and me and my baby. I prayed out loud, "Father, thank You for giving us this baby. Thank you that he's coming today. 'I can do all things through Christ Who strengthens me.*' Thank You, Lord. You bring this baby out. This is all You. Come on, let's go!" After that I was on top of my pain (because my Jesus was carrying me).

Just reading that again brings tears to my eyes. I was so close to God. What has happened to me?

I've always desired to know and understand everything. This makes faith a challenge. Well, here's what I know and understand:

1.  When I try to be successful in my own strength, I fail, I disappoint, I even hurt people to accomplish my goal (i e: yelling).
2.  When I let go, trust Jesus to give me strength, love others, and just steadily keep trying, I am a conqueror and a blessing to my family.

I want live my life like I birth my babies. My family needs me. I can't let let that negative inner voice have the microphone anymore.

"I am good enough. I am reaching my goal. I am a champion. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.* I am doing great. I was made to do this."

*Philippians 4:13


  1. Sarah,
    You are such an inspiration to me! I struggle with the same voice telling me I can't do it. A lot of times I give in and believe that I can't. Thanks for always encouraging me and believing in me! You are very dear to me and I'm so glad that the Lord saw fit to give us this friendship.

  2. Oh Sarah, I too remember Eli's birth. Your connection with Jesus was so evident that when the midwife wanted to intervene I motioned for her to wait. I knew you & Jesus were "working things out"! Wow!! We all learned something that day. God is awesome! Our relationship with Him is so personal & so worth guarding. Love you honey! Thanks for bringing back a precious memory that I'll never forget. Keep trusting honey!! Love, Mom

  3. Thank you for your continual encouragement!!!


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